HOW GOD DELIVERED ME FROM FEAR
For God has not given me the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind… 2 Timothy 1:7
Since I was younger, I had always been afraid of the dark and scary creatures. So when my seer gifting was activated, it got worse. I was seeing unclean spirits everywhere especially in the hostel bathroom. It was terrible because sometimes I would cry in the bathroom. It was really scary. It wasn’t just fear of the dark, it was being alone, fear of the night. It was really intense, irrational. I had to study what the Scriptures said on fear but it didn’t seem to work because of unbelief.
Every time Barrister would call for people who want hands laid on them, I would be among the crowd going out. This was because I feared that the fear thing would never go. It was really bad, it didn’t matter how many times I sang, “God has not given us the spirit of fear” it didn’t matter how many times I said, “Don’t be afraid”. It was impossible. But since June-July it lifted.
I had not noticed the extent to which it had lifted until I experienced a period where the electricity in my room stopped working. It was not fixed for weeks and my other room mates were not back from home yet. It was just me alone in the room. The first night, I woke up in the middle of the night and then came the same old scary creatures. It was so easy to chase away the thought. Instead, I thought; “God has not given me the spirit of fear, so what are you?” then I slept peacefully.
I usually borrowed a rechargeable lamp from Sifon. I used to leave it on all night. But then I thought it was of no use leaving it on anyways. So I would just switch it off and sleep peacefully. Then wake up and continue with my life like nothing happened. At some point, Amaka even complained about how I could sleep in a dark room with no one else and not freak out. I thank God for delivering me from fear. It’s really been a big deal for me.